You really can start over. Like a child. Abandon all that is and face the abyss. The clean slate. It’s terrifying. But you can. At any age.
Most don’t because they worry about what others will say. If that why you haven’t, then question your relationships. Those who truly love you may not understand but they will support you. Those who don’t support you, well, they’re not brave enough to do it themselves. They will watch you and wish they could.
The first time I did it, I was proving things to myself. The second time I did it, it was a decision to stop waiting for tomorrow and do the things I dreamed NOW. To live NOW. Because tomorrow is not guaranteed. This last time I did it, 3 1/2 years ago, I did it for justice for myself and to heal the deep past wounds so I could move forward in a beautiful life. I wiped the slate without a plan, and it has worked out magnificently.
I’m only human. Each of these moves was also a huge “fuck you” to the ones trying to hold me down or hold me back. I’m not proud of that feeling, but I honor it.
You will lose people if you do this. Sometimes, the ones you lose will surprise you. They were there for a season or a reason, and you will see that on the other side. The people still in my life are the ones I want to keep. The shedding was worth it. They are worth keeping.
I don’t know if I’m doing this phase right. It feels right for now. The Universe keeps pointing me in this direction. I’m open to learning and growing with it. I once again have a passion. A purpose for my life. And I don’t yet know how I’m going to express it. How it’s going to manifest. But it’s going to manifest. I just hope my loved ones and friends are up for the ride! (Space, people. We are going to live and work in space before my time here is up!)
You CAN make the change. What you think holds you is an illusion. You CAN live the life you want. You CAN live your dreams. Are you brave enough?
